So, here's my biggest problem, I think. Though I wanted to drum since I was a wee lad, I didn't actually do anything about it until I was a junior in high school, when I joined the marching band and was stuck with the little bitty 12 inch marching cymbals..... I can read music... but mostly because I took a piano class in high school, and I learned a bit o'violin when I was that very same wee lad. I have never had a formal drum lesson, and couldn't afford one if I wanted to (kinda lucked into my monster set) WHAT DO I DO?? I want to drum, I love to bang around, but frankly I suck. I can't play crazy fills, and I don't really know many rudiments... I'm good at keeping time, and can keep the backbeat really well... I just really screw up when I try fills.